As Responsibles have time on their side, or believe they do, even if not true in the current state of the War, tactics must rapidly develop, test, employ and evolve, this at a pace Responsibles cannot hope to keep up with.
The Eternal War | Doctrine | Time | Resentfuls’ Principle
“How do you continue to do this? How do you live in such a world?” Princess Annabelle, safely, for a time, ensconced in the isolated guest house of the Napa vineyard they’d been secretly ushered to. After coming ashore north of Stinson Beach, during a short raging gun battle between Carl’s men and those tracking them. It seemed both only hours and a lifetime ago. Though that night and its events had been two nights ago.
“We’re built for it.” Prince Bobby responds, with a shrug. There’d been no time to grieve, to take the full measure of the events since the assault on the San Francisco sanctuary. There isn’t much time now, as they’ll need move again, soon. Freedom of movement being the only true security when hunted by the highly proficient, backed with all the latest technologies and resources.
“That can’t be enough.” Princess Annabelle, the fullness of it hitting her increasingly over the past day and a half. The lives she’d taken without a thought. The lives lost. Just so she could escape. The death of Carl and his men in a sleepy little town in Marin County. All to provide cover for her escape.
“It’s so dark.” The Princess, her head in her hands, as the truth of who and what she is, the world men like these live in, to keep her and those like her safe. As it all crashes over and through her.
“If someone doesn’t stand to the darkness, doesn’t embrace it within themselves. Then the darkness bleeds everywhere into the world.” Bobby, his eyes locked onto Annabelle’s, firm, cold and ruthless. But with the compassion of a mentor. This isn't the time to show weakness, to allow her to slide into grief, to wallow in pity and shock. There'll be time to process the pain later. But for now, she must learn to sublimate it, must be ready to move and to kill again if required.
The lessons at the Sanctuary, and those whispered in the escape, those over the past two, exhausted, days here on the vineyard. They show in her stiffening, her hands dropping away from her head, her shoulders pushing back to sit up straight. There’s fire in this Royal, to be certain. Bobby, smiling lightly, admires.
“Just beyond the faint glimmer of light. There is only darkness. Darkness seeking always to extinguish the fragile light of humanity. Were it not for those few who enter into darkness to fight the evil dwells always there. Those who forever after carry darkness in their soul. Humanity would fall. To the ruin and enslavement of all.” Annabelle recites the first part of the meditation.
Until the events of the last three days, this had only been a mantra, a meditation, of The Order. Yet another of the many such phrases meant to impart hard-earned wisdoms. Now Annabelle begins to understand, to feel the truth of it in her bones. As if some ancient knowledge trapped within her very old genes is expressing itself. Genetic memories only released when similar forces are at play in her life as were in the life of the ancestor who first attained such knowledge and wisdom, painfully.
“I shall bear the weight of darkness all the days of my life. That others may know the light of humanity.” Prince Dlamini finishes the meditation. Nodding his head approvingly as Annabelle steels herself, puts the pain of innocence lost away in an inner compartment. To be brought out later, properly dealt with, in the right time and place.
“How does he do it? How does he continue unfazed?” Annabelle asks her mentor, Prince Dlamini, Bobby. As she looks out the window to where the man who’d been more a father to her than she’d ever known, is sitting in a slat wooden chair, his gaze out across the vineyard as it rolls down the hill away from the guesthouse.
After spending a day below decks on the sailing yacht they’d escaped from San Francisco on. A day leisurely sailing offshore as if enjoying a several days jaunt. They’d come in on the second night, very early in the morning, actually. Under the cover of darkness and a fog rolling in. The three of them on an inflatable piloted by one of the crew from the ship. Just after making it to shore, north of Stinson Beach, up near RCA beach. They could hear the sounds of sporadic gunfire in the distance, to the east and slightly south of them, closer to Bolinas Lagoon. Gunfire coming closer to them as they moved inland, towards Highway One and Woodville.
The three of them, under thermal masking sheets pulled from their packs. Watched from the side of the road as Carl and his team came into view, moving north on HWY 1, going past them into Woodville, trailed by two SUVs. The lead of which being where the gunfire was coming from. The passenger in the front seat shooting at the trail vehicle in Carl’s two car group. They watched, unable to do anything as a man emerged from the sunroof of the lead SUV, with an RPG, as he fired it at the lead vehicle in Carl’s group.
The blast lifted the back of the lead car from the road, slamming it into a light post. Bringing it to a complete stop. The second car skidding sideways to miss the first. Taking up a blocking position between the now crashed and upside-down vehicle and those in pursuit. What followed next was a short-lived wild west gunfight in the outskirts of sleepy Woodville. A gunfight ended with Carl and his entire team dead, blown apart by further RPG fire. The final of three RPG blasts barely visible to Annabelle as she looks out the back window of the vehicle the three of them had entered, before moving in the opposite direction Carl and his men had gone. Back south on HWY 1. Her pursuers distracted by the fierce but short fight put up by Carl and his men.
It had all been a decoy. Carl and his men sacrificing their lives, dearly. Having taken out more than half of their pursuers, putting up such a fierce fight their attackers, rather than seeking to take the Princess alive, had resorted to killing everyone with RPG blasts. While the decoy would hold her pursuers off for a time. They would soon enough cut through the ruse created by the bodies resanguinated after death with blood taken from Bobby, Early and herself. Which explained why her blood had been taken regularly and stored. Something that had piqued her interest for two years. The blood smears would test positive for the right DNA. But no body tissue test would. Nor would other medical records such as dental. Bobby had stated it would delay at best three days.
While getting away early that morning. Turning back to face the front seat, where the Earl was conferring with the driver. Annabelle couldn’t believe the lack of expression on his face, the lack of attention paid to the death of his longtime friend and colleague. Live now, grieve later. While Carl had always been aloof, more a wolf than a man. She knew he’d been fond of her and that he knew she was fond of him. The silent protective uncle. How could the Earl be so disconnected, while her heart and soul were breaking?
The burden of nobility is that we use up and kill the good where and when we must, because we must.
She would learn the following day, safely secured in the remote guesthouse of the vineyard. A vineyard not owned by The Order. But owned by a former Marine Corps veteran had gone through the Population Health program of The Order. Who’d then been backed indirectly, untraceably, by The Order, with grants to buy and operate the vineyard, as a non-profit. To provide traumatic brain injury and post-traumatic stress treatments and recovery for veterans and first responders. As well as to provide temporary Sanctuary and other resources and capabilities, should such be necessary. She’d learned the Earl had argued against the course of action taken.
When in a running battle, whether gunfighting, in a lull, or in movement between gunfights. One does not dictate the battlespace. One allows and follows the flow as dictated by the current conditions and environment and by the current capacities and actions of the enemy and self. A passage in one of her studies comes to the fore, as she looks out to the Earl sitting alone.
Turns out her pursuers had planned and prepared quite well for an attempt to escape from San Francisco either across the two bridges, through the routes south on the peninsula or out to sea. With, out to sea, being the most likely. In the end, Carl’s plan to sacrifice himself and his knights had been the only viable option available.
These men had all died willingly, with thought and foreplaning. For her. That she might go on and her children might rule. The very thought of it she can’t even approach now, still under pursuit as they are. For she knows. When she stops to confront this reality, that her very existence means good men and women will die. Well, if and when she can stop to think of that. It’ll certainly crush her very soul. For a time only! AnnaBelle thinks to herself. As she shunts off the emotions. Trying to be more like these stoic men, these knights, these unrecognized Princes in the world.
I must live worthy! A mantra she’d devised herself, yesterday, to retain sanity, to remain capable of whatever is asked and demanded of her.
On the whole, she’s rather surprised in herself. In her ability to manage the pain, the darkness of the last two plus days. The loss of life. Those she’d taken. Those had fallen around her. Those who’d fallen for her. A switch, most certainly. Carl, in a conversation after morning hand-to-hand training, had said this to her. That there’s a switch in warriors. An aggression switch allows one to dial up intensity, energetic potential. Cross that potential and the switch flips to violence of action.
“How do you go from zero to one hundred so quickly?” This, a question, from one of the last conversations she’d had with Carl.
“I don’t” His quiet reply. His eyes looking deeply into her. Letting her find the meaning in his statement, on her own.
“You’re never at zero.” AnnaBelle, thinking out loud, answering Carl’s unspoken question. His only response being an ever so brief and small nod of his head.
“But how ever does one hide always on aggression?” This question brings out one of the few actual smiles Carl ever demonstrated in her presence. A smile of appreciation.
“We don’t.” Carl further prompts with brief words and look. Forcing the princess to think more.
“A body in motion stays in motion.” AnnaBelle posits before continuing. Not looking to Carl for approval. She’d learned long before she’d not get it. Not that he wouldn’t approve. He’d just never let his approval show.
She’d looked to Carl then, to see if she could see what state of aggression, he was currently in. It was there, in the posture, tightness around the mouth and eyes. A sort of vibration about him. Strange she’d never really seen it before, not this obviously. She’d always thought it was just intensity. Carl being yet another of the serious people had come with the Earl. Thinking about it on the vineyard, about her intense guardian, more like a big brother or uncle, now dead. It surprises her how much he’d showed her, taught her without teaching her. Simply by being what he was.
In what at the time, long after her zero to one hundred questions, seemed an oddly placed caution. Carl had told her the only way to never be or become a slave was to maintain a constant state of aggression. Now she understands. Here on the vineyard, the shock of it all rewiring her in ways she knows she’d never be able to clarify nor even fully know for some time yet. If even, then. One must always, in all things and at all times, maintain a state of active aggression. Dialing this aggression up or down in proportion to the threat level at any given time in any given place and situation.
Everything which had transpired during and since the events in the hallway in the San Francisco sanctuary finally brought his lesson on aggression home. To go from zero to anything can, and most often will, get one killed. The energy necessary to move a stationary object being vastly greater than to accelerate an object already in motion. This being true of violence no less than anything else.
Slaves! Women, in whom aggression is so often perceived as insanity. Men, in whom aggression is so often perceived as a threat. How many had enslaved themselves by suppressing and denying aggression in themselves. Incorrectly believing that if it was absolutely essential, they’d be able to go from zero to whatever level of response necessary to save them. But it doesn’t work that way. Instead, all they are doing is relegating themselves to slavery. The only way in which to attain and remain in this state being the denial of reality. Denial of the fact there are ever-present threats in even our little part of the world.
Crazy, but that old trope is not a trope. When shit’s going down, the ones with aggression already turned on are the only ones speaking truth, the only ones who can and do move, forward toward the threat. Astoundingly she’d seen these men reach a state of utter calm only when in a very real fight. Something about the way in which they’re wired. A wiring she seems to have herself. But what’s the balance, what level of intensity and aggression must be maintained at all times? It has to be more than twenty five percent always, fifty percent depending on the situation.
How does one exist in modern polite society with any degree of aggression turned on? Something deeper in Carl’s message is coming to the fore now. Disquiet of the strong, the aggressive, is either a sign of a slave or a slaver. The former self-enslaved and made uncomfortable by your not having enslaved yourself, while also fearing you as a slaver. The latter never comfortable meeting a human being has not self-enslaved while also fearing being taken down by those few true anti-slavers among us.
As she sits and watches the Earl outside the window, beginning to stir in the wood slat chair, overlooking this part of the vineyard. As he stands, stretches and begins to move back towards her inside. AnnaBelle seeks to understand where all of this comes from. How did this self-enslaving, denial of one’s own aggression, come to be so prevalent in the modern world?
“How do you believe it all began? More importantly, why?” The Earl, always the teacher, the mentor, the father figure, known and trusted entity, and once and future Senior Knight Commander to a Royal and great houses. Responds, to the question she drops upon him shortly after he’s reentered from the slatted chair overlooking the vine covered hills.
“I believe women began taking overt control after the industrial slaughter of WWI, increasingly since WWII.”
“Were they not in control before?” The Earl asks. No expression of the loss of his close compatriot and friend, nor of the exhaustion of the last few days showing anywhere but as a mere slight deepening of the wrinkles at the corners of his azure colored eyes.
“Always. Just not overtly, nor so directly and directly impactfully.”
“And?”
“I think men saw something about the true nature of the World of Man in WWI, then again in WWII. Something they didn’t expect to find. A thing shook the very foundations of the World of Man. Something only full industrial warfare could show.”
“Which is?” He may not show the strain upon his aging self. But anyone who knows him, as she’s come to over the past years of their daily engagements, can see how tired the Earl is in the lack of his normal supportive expressions.
“How deep into hell men will go, remain and how much darkness they will carry for life if not restrained by power other than force of arms.”
“That force being the World of Woman?”
“Yes. But women got it wrong, are still getting it wrong. Women sought to and are still seeking to geld men to prevent future slaughter, to remove darkness. They’re doing this by making sex ever more available from low status women, believing wrongly competition for sex is what drives men and that this drive is the root cause of darkness in the world.”
“It isn’t?”
“Not in healthy men. In weak and predatory men, yes. In strong and healthy men, no.”
“What drives men, if it isn’t constant access to sex? The healthy ones.”
“I think what drives men is fatherhood. It seems everything a healthy man does is to earn and retain the right and capacity to be a father.” The Earl looks to her, his exhaustion, for the briefest moment, slipping away in an expression of respect and approval for this young princess in his care. A princess who, while on the run, is yet thinking through the complex and difficult things. “I think men, fathers, they earn this right by fighting the darkness emerges inevitably from unchecked weakness, cowardice, fear, envy, greed, malevolence, all the baser low status traits. Fight it within themselves, always, while standing against it, with strength and violence if they must, in their families, communities and when unavoidable, in the broader world.”
“So, making sex readily available, hypersexualizing low status women, has not reduced darkness in the world, has not removed malevolence and violence?”
“No, quite the opposite. It’s only ensured darkness, usury and abuse, are everywhere unrestrained, right out in the open.” AnnaBelle frowns with genuine anger as the realization comes across her mind. “Now there are weak men and predators everywhere, destroying healthy women and children, shielded and supported by powerful unhealthy women.”
“Remove a father’s protection, the constant capacity in, willingness to and actual enactment of violence against any threat to wife and children, and society fails.” Early, Lord Rothbury, exhausted, prepared for a fight at any moment, preparing for their imminent move from the seclusion of the Northern California vineyard, nods in recognition of Her Highness’ thinking and awareness.
“Man, as a father or one earning the right to be a father, is to be and confront darkness in order to protect relationships. Woman is to maintain these relationships while preventing the darkness her man confronts and takes into himself from overwhelming him. It’s in this balance, maintained and acted out billions of times a day by tens of millions of couples, that the slave mind is denied and our people are sustained.”
“Go on.”
“If a woman fails in this, to allow her man to be and confront darkness, to protect relationships. Then darkness spreads everywhere, into everything, till there’s only darkness. Women have to accept some part of darkness in their own lives to know darkness is real. To understand what men are dealing with always on behalf of women and children. To recognize the darkness in other women and how it’s shaping the world.”
The sheer thought of it, not the truth of it, but what that truth means, now slams into her. “He knew he was going to die for me. Do his children know who their father was?” Now the tears she’s been holding back for days begin to flow, as drops building into a river. “Do they know he earned the right to be a father over and over again, till the very end of his life. A life he gave still earning that right?” The pain of it doubles AnnaBelle over in great wracking tears and crying.
Before she can collapse. Early closes the short distance between he and his ward. Taking her into his arms. Holding her so she doesn’t fall onto the floor in pain and grief. AnnaBelle can’t see it, as she turns and buries her face in his chest, her arms and hands between them, clenched at her own chest. There may not be the wracking cries coming from his steadfast body, but there are tears in his own eyes he can no longer prevent from forming and falling onto her hair. Tears at the loss of one of the greatest men he’d ever known, will ever know, a true warrior and knight, a father.
Keeping the tears out of his voice the best he can, “A man doesn’t do what he does for recognition. He does it for the love of his children and life.”
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